Freaking out...

...I finally felt that I got all pieces in my hands...

...until my past drop me to the bottom again...

...I panicked...

...my past is still dominating my life... 

...actually I was freaking out really...
...I can't stand any obscurity right now... 

...it would need much bigger 

brain capacity to realize that...

...so its not even worth the trouble to ask...

...I'd like to say something nice too...

...but right now I'm exhausted...

...I can't stand any negative issues from my past...

...yeah...no need to say more...

...but I realize today that I'm not struggling alone...

...and I'm working with my attitude...