The brakeman has resigned...

...DONE!! But I got no stable moments at all...
...I think my life's rollercoaster goes way too fast...

...I am an emotionholic yes and a very badly addicted...
...my brain wont talk the same language with my heart... 

...and I'm getting to be a bit cynic...
...'a bit' might be a totally wrong word tho... 

...I'm sure my rollercoaster's brakeman has resigned...
...but what a hell, at least my life isn't boring, right?...

Things could be easier...

...I went to Stockholm and had a long-awaited meeting...

...a special person came back from Asia after months...
...charming and special....

...fuck...I'm doomed...

...now there lives one more person at my home...
...dunno how long... 

...I've got lots of big hugs finally...

...but people are busy...
...especially if they've been traveling for a long time... 

...and I hate waiting more than anything...

...so now I'm thinking I'm just too kind and helpful...
..I only meet people who I wont see enough...

...I still believe that you just have to be patient...
...everything happens for the reason...

...yeah...argh, It's hard...
...things could be much easier too...

...life sucks...
...and at the same time it's gooooooood...

I'm free...

...yesterday was the first day of spring
and the sun was shining...

...it was the end of one era...
...and the beginning of a new one...

...couldn't be any better day
to sign the partition agreement...

...I wont cry even a bit...
...I'm happy cause it's finally over...

...I feel free to live my own life now...
...ready for the new adventures...

...well sure, there's a price for that... 
...I'll pay to get rid of my past...  

...but I'm still super happy and can't say more...
...I just feel so FREEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Yep, still tired...

...I'm still tired...
...especially physically...

...I don't sleep well, even I sleep a lot...

...this have been my schedule for a week now... 

...I'm waiting for spring...
...the sun, amazing colors, warming and that feeling...

Freaking out...

...I finally felt that I got all pieces in my hands...

...until my past drop me to the bottom again...

...I panicked...

...my past is still dominating my life... 

...actually I was freaking out really...
...I can't stand any obscurity right now... 

...it would need much bigger 

brain capacity to realize that...

...so its not even worth the trouble to ask...

...I'd like to say something nice too...

...but right now I'm exhausted...

...I can't stand any negative issues from my past...

...yeah...no need to say more...

...but I realize today that I'm not struggling alone...

...and I'm working with my attitude...

I'm shining...

...I heard that I'm shining...

...and I feel like that as well...

...yeah man, no stress at all at the moment...

...I'm relaxed...not even sleepy... 

...spring is coming and I love it...

...I'm quite satisfied with my life right now... 

...I'm doing some future plans...
...where I'm after 5 or 10 years and stuff... 

...and I feel Zen...

Weirdo...

...I had a nice day...
...I met a lovely person after a long time...

...I can't remember when I've been that happy...

...and cause it's a leap day...
...the traditional time that women can propose...

...I did...

...I didn't get the answer yet hahaa...

...seriously that one is one of my best friends...

...he's weirdo...almost as weird as I am...

...I love that person who I am when I'm with him...
...sad thing is that we don't see very often...
...and I never see that person without him...

...he's very special one...

...the one yep...

...yeah dude...remember that...
...we gotta see each other more often...