The brakeman has resigned...

...DONE!! But I got no stable moments at all...
...I think my life's rollercoaster goes way too fast...

...I am an emotionholic yes and a very badly addicted...
...my brain wont talk the same language with my heart... 

...and I'm getting to be a bit cynic...
...'a bit' might be a totally wrong word tho... 

...I'm sure my rollercoaster's brakeman has resigned...
...but what a hell, at least my life isn't boring, right?...

Things could be easier...

...I went to Stockholm and had a long-awaited meeting...

...a special person came back from Asia after months...
...charming and special....

...fuck...I'm doomed...

...now there lives one more person at my home...
...dunno how long... 

...I've got lots of big hugs finally...

...but people are busy...
...especially if they've been traveling for a long time... 

...and I hate waiting more than anything...

...so now I'm thinking I'm just too kind and helpful...
..I only meet people who I wont see enough...

...I still believe that you just have to be patient...
...everything happens for the reason...

...yeah...argh, It's hard...
...things could be much easier too...

...life sucks...
...and at the same time it's gooooooood...

Yep, still tired...

...I'm still tired...
...especially physically...

...I don't sleep well, even I sleep a lot...

...this have been my schedule for a week now... 

...I'm waiting for spring...
...the sun, amazing colors, warming and that feeling...

Freaking out...

...I finally felt that I got all pieces in my hands...

...until my past drop me to the bottom again...

...I panicked...

...my past is still dominating my life... 

...actually I was freaking out really...
...I can't stand any obscurity right now... 

...it would need much bigger 

brain capacity to realize that...

...so its not even worth the trouble to ask...

...I'd like to say something nice too...

...but right now I'm exhausted...

...I can't stand any negative issues from my past...

...yeah...no need to say more...

...but I realize today that I'm not struggling alone...

...and I'm working with my attitude...

Weirdo...

...I had a nice day...
...I met a lovely person after a long time...

...I can't remember when I've been that happy...

...and cause it's a leap day...
...the traditional time that women can propose...

...I did...

...I didn't get the answer yet hahaa...

...seriously that one is one of my best friends...

...he's weirdo...almost as weird as I am...

...I love that person who I am when I'm with him...
...sad thing is that we don't see very often...
...and I never see that person without him...

...he's very special one...

...the one yep...

...yeah dude...remember that...
...we gotta see each other more often...

My ongoing rollercoaster...

...I've always been a daysleeper...

...I've got kids...and I love them...

...I've cried...

...i've been angry...

...and I've been happy...

...I've been in love... 

...I've hurt myself...many times...

...and I've just walk away...

...I've got divorced...

...I've lost myself...

...and I've found myself...

...I've lost many special ones...

...but I've found many amazing ones too...

...I've been traveling...a lot...

...but I've also enjoyed to stay at home...

...I've got a great job...

...but I've been too tired to enjoy it lately...

...I've got thoughts in this...

...but I've still been hoping this...

...and I've got a right attitude...I think...