The brakeman has resigned...

...DONE!! But I got no stable moments at all...
...I think my life's rollercoaster goes way too fast...

...I am an emotionholic yes and a very badly addicted...
...my brain wont talk the same language with my heart... 

...and I'm getting to be a bit cynic...
...'a bit' might be a totally wrong word tho... 

...I'm sure my rollercoaster's brakeman has resigned...
...but what a hell, at least my life isn't boring, right?...

Things could be easier...

...I went to Stockholm and had a long-awaited meeting...

...a special person came back from Asia after months...
...charming and special....

...fuck...I'm doomed...

...now there lives one more person at my home...
...dunno how long... 

...I've got lots of big hugs finally...

...but people are busy...
...especially if they've been traveling for a long time... 

...and I hate waiting more than anything...

...so now I'm thinking I'm just too kind and helpful...
..I only meet people who I wont see enough...

...I still believe that you just have to be patient...
...everything happens for the reason...

...yeah...argh, It's hard...
...things could be much easier too...

...life sucks...
...and at the same time it's gooooooood...

Freaking out...

...I finally felt that I got all pieces in my hands...

...until my past drop me to the bottom again...

...I panicked...

...my past is still dominating my life... 

...actually I was freaking out really...
...I can't stand any obscurity right now... 

...it would need much bigger 

brain capacity to realize that...

...so its not even worth the trouble to ask...

...I'd like to say something nice too...

...but right now I'm exhausted...

...I can't stand any negative issues from my past...

...yeah...no need to say more...

...but I realize today that I'm not struggling alone...

...and I'm working with my attitude...